Please forgive me! I was blind but now I see! A Spiritual Warrior’s apology to the women he loved…

abOh my God Beloved Friends,
now it is really happening. The Union between the Sacred Hearts of the Divine Feminine and the Divine Masculine, as transmitted trough the frequency shifts in the universe since June this year, are coming into manifestation inside of us. While writing this, I find myself crying my heart out – physically shaking all over – while breathing in deeply and rhythmically till the last vibration of my toes and the last spike of my hair, the wonderful, magical, authentic vibrations, coming from this Self-master’s words.
I don’t know who this magical Warrior of Love is who blessed us with such a loving authentic message but I know, that I BLESS HIM from the bottom of my divine sacred feminine heart – with all the force and clarity of unconditional love I ever achieved inside me – for this letter to us, the seeker of a divinely guided, authentic and truthful love relationship. A union created by two souls, infinitely connected throughout time and space, both brave enough to be whole in their own masculinity and femininity!! With this I leave you to the actual sensation of the day…. this beautiful letter from a Divine Masculine Heart.

I used to think women were only afraid of aggression in men, in all its forms: anger, rage, physical violence, verbal abuse, sexual aggression, rape. I grew up with all kinds of conflicting social messages about the wrongs (and subtle rights) of violence against women. With three sisters and two mothers (married to my two fathers), I learned early there was something inherently special about women, that they were different from men not just in body parts, but in essence. I knew they should be protected and respected. In addition to the daily masculine aggression towards women I encountered outside my home, I also watched my alcoholic step-father terrorize my mother, me and two sisters with an explosive rage (he’s sober 21 years now, and a good man). Seeing these beautiful, brilliant women in my life routinely recoil in the face of a horrifying masculine aggression only reinforced my ideas about a woman’s singular fear. I learned to loathe the thought of making a woman feel unsafe in my presence. I wanted to make women feel good, to like me, and I had seen how aggression made them not feel good, how it made them hate a man.
So I did my best to never express aggression with a woman.

Even in my sexuality. I shut down sexually towards women for fear that my desire would be interpreted by them as aggression. Throughout my dating life and well into relationships, until I was 100% certain a woman welcomed a next step with me, I would not proceed with a next step. A woman had to practically stick her tongue down my throat before I understood that kissing her was welcome. I castrated myself in countless ways to protect women from any hint of masculine aggression in me. I often practiced what I believed was the most certain way to make a woman feel safe: I made myself invisible to her. Whether that meant backing down, staying out of her way, leaving the room, or simply pretending I didn’t want to ravage her when I so desperately did, I made myself as non-threatening in a woman’s presence as I could position myself to be. I taught myself how to disappear. To save her from what I thought was her primal fear of my aggression.c4f099dcf1717c7ede2519c2141d4ba4But here’s what was really happening:
In the last few years I’ve discovered something women fear even more in men than mere aggression. It’s something far more common in our everyday world. Something us men even fear in ourselves, though most aren’t even conscious we’re doing. A feminine woman is most afraid of her masculine man disappearing. She’s afraid of him failing to show up for her. Not stepping up. Walking out. Not staying strong and present, particularly when things get a little crazy and confusing. A woman’s deepest desire is to be cherished. When a man leaves, even just emotionally if not physically, she is left completely un-cherished.
Aggression is simply the extreme expression of a man not cherishing a woman.
I checked out for years when my women got too emotional for me, especially when they were angry. I thought if they just saw things differently – if they saw things like I see them – everything would be fine. So I tried like mad to convince their minds to shift. Which rarely worked. They weren’t waiting to have their intellects adjusted. So I would constantly give up and run, even when I stayed in the room. If she fought me long enough, eventually I fought back. A feminine woman can’t out-masculine me. I will win that battle. And I did. Every time. But I really only ever lost. So did she. Heartbreaking how blind I was to what was actually going on. I realize now she was simply screaming out her fear, desperate for me to step up strong and claim her heart, to let her know without a doubt that I’m here, not going anywhere, that she’s safe in my love, to simply reassure her deeply that I got her and won’t let anything bad happen to her … like only a healthy masculine man could reassure her.

Women weren’t just afraid of my aggression. They were afraid of my leaving, which ironically I was doing in countless ways often to avoid my own innate aggression which scared me, too.
Had I known this deeper truth, I likely would have married my last girlfriend. Instead, I labeled her immature and mean, and I ran in every direction. I couldn’t stand in the illusory fire of her pain – a pain largely caused by masculine abandonment in her past. I was so triggered by her pain, so caught up in my own, that I couldn’t reassure her that I loved her and would hold her safe as she learned to trust again. I lost the woman I loved most in my life because I couldn’t see what was really happening; what she was really asking of me. She was asking me to step up and fight for her heart.
Fight what? Fight myself. Fight my desire to run. To check out. To disappear. She was begging me to be aggressive with my own inner demons, and perhaps hers, too, in the battle for her sacred feminine heart. But I lost that battle. She’s married to another man now.
a-twinOh what fine messes of hearts I helped create over the years. I didn’t know. I’m so sorry. Please forgive me. I see now. I’m growing up. I’m a Man. Eager to share what I’ve learned through so much pain, with other men who don’t yet see, but who are ready to. I’m finally ready to step up and fight for a woman’s heart.

Have this words touched you as much as they have touched me? Than there is hope!! Hope that your desire for oneness between men and women is burning bright, and that you will do everything in your power to be part of creating a new paradigm for our love-relationships!!! United we can overcome what ever obstacle might still be on our way!!!
Love and Blessing
Edith

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Overweight – Can I anyway go to a Yoga class??

yoga_instructorby Edith Boyer-Telmer

Dear Friends,
in the magical little town I live in, we are a collective of Healer, Personal Trainer, Ascension Facilitator and many, many Yoga Teacher. You can at least find five different Yoga classes the day, offerings of any type and style you can possible imagine.
Last night I was talking to a close friend, a wonderful, beautiful, strong, fire and slightly overweight woman. I was truly shocked when I heard her asking me the question “Can I even take a Yoga class, with my weight”. Apart from the fact that my beautiful friend is literally only 10 pounds over her so called “ideal weight”, it shocked me most – that she would even in the least consider limiting herself because of her weight. Especially as I know her as  a courageous woman, usually unafraid to take whatever she truly desires. It made me think of the million of women out there, who are not jet ready to stand up for their true desires in everyday life. So this is to all of you!!!

The first – and most important news flash is – there is no typical yoga body. Everybody who puts enough effort and perseverance into it, can be successful in experiencing the true effects of Yoga. Best example is the American Plus-Size Yoga Teacher Jessamine Stanley. All the beautiful pictures used in this article are from her Instagram presentation.
aAnd that leads us to news flash number two: the essence of Yoga is not about the physical body, not about looking good, not about loosing weight, not even about bringing more strength to the body. All of this are basically side-effects, that can be used in many different therapeutic ways. But the essence begins where everything else begins, in the mind. It is about finding liberation for limiting believe systems (without actively having to go thru the minds understanding), this liberation than leads to an inner extension – which we notice as sinking in deeper into a Yoga pose, that we where not able to hold just yesterday. That people who practice Yoga since a long time often have a slim and sometimes wiry physical appearance, has rather to do with the mental discipline that comes from regular training in general.
And please don’t get me wrong, a woman born with heavy bone structure, a woman broad in the beam or highly overweight – will never turn into a Prima Ballerina, just because of practicing Yoga.Smash-yoga6Which turns into the news flash number three: For the creation of a brotherhood of men for this world, we have to stop judging each others body and realize – their beauty lies in being the vessel for our divine soul. We need to get out of societies claws of cruelty, comparison and completion with each other. A study from England shows, that over 70% of women feel so afraid of being judged for their physical bodies appearance, they never even start attending the gym or go to exercise classes. How did we manage to get so afraid of each other that 70% of a countries population rather decides to stay at home, than one more time suffer the profound pain other peoples judgement can trigger??
At the same time, according to the US Centers for Disease Control and Prevention, less than half of the American population actually get enough physical exercise. A lack of physical activity makes us more vulnerable for diseases such as diabetes, heart disease, cancer. Is that really worth it?
So be a role-model!!! Get out there and do what you want to do!!! Put your thickest skin on top of your thinnest leggings and book a class, if that is what you truly desire doing. If you want to dance – find a dance class! And if you want to sing – let a teacher train you!

I hope you feel inspired to rush out and take your first class!! And the next time when I take a break at for a Yoga teaching – I expect to meet at least three overweight sisters in my class!!! We want you to become visible sisters of the world!! Go, let your Light shine bright!!
Blessings & Love Edith

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(Photo credit:  Jessamine Stanley on Instagram)

 

Choose Her Everyday – Or Leave Her

x0Dear Friends,
as the last few weeks encouraged us to birth into Spiritual Warriors for love and to clear our core values around everything we truly desire, I thought this piece a nice invitation to both sexes for a personal relationship reality check. It is a beautiful and heart felt confession from a man who failed himself in love and mad his math – how not to repeat the pain. Written in honesty and clarity it deeply reminds us, that both sides are suffering when we can not really choose our partner.
After yesterdays share of A Spiritual Warriors Apology to the Feminine, I feel it a beautiful addition. Hope that all of you – who desire so, find the courage to manifest your most hidden, most loudly screaming, inner picture of new love relationships into this world!
AHO! And Blessings!
Edith
I spent 5 years hurting a good woman by staying with her but never fully choosing her:
I did want to be with this one. I really wanted to choose her. She was an exquisite woman, brilliant and funny and sexy and sensual. She could make my whole body laugh with her quick, dark wit and short-circuit my brain with her exotic beauty. Waking up every morning with her snuggled in my arms was my happy place. I loved her wildly.
Unfortunately, as happens with many young couples, our ignorance of how to do love well quickly created stressful challenges in our relationship. Before long, once my early morning blissful reverie gave way to the strained, immature ways of our everyday life together, I would often wonder if there was another woman out there who was easier to love, and who could love me better.
As the months passed and that thought reverberated more and more through my head, I chose her less and less. Everyday, for five years, I chose her a little less.
I stayed with her. I just stopped choosing her. We both suffered.coupleChoosing her would have meant focusing everyday on the gifts she was bringing into my life that I could be grateful for: her laughter, beauty, sensuality, playfulness, companionship, and so … much … more. Sadly, I often found it nearly impossible to embrace – or even see – what was so wildly wonderful about her. I was too focused on the anger, insecurities, demands, and other aspects of her strong personality that grated on me. The more I focused on her worst, the more I saw of it, and the more I mirrored it back to her by offering my own worst behavior. Naturally, this only magnified the strain on our relationship … which still made me choose her even less.
Thus did our nasty death spiral play itself out over five years. She fought hard to make me choose her. That’s a fool’s task. You can’t make someone choose you, even when they might love you.To be fair, she didn’t fully choose me, either. The rage-fueled invective she often hurled at me was evidence enough of that.
I realize now, however, that she was often angry because she didn’t feel safe with me. She felt me not choosing her everyday, in my words and my actions, and she was afraid I would abandon her.
Actually, I did abandon her.
By not fully choosing her everyday for five years, by focusing on what bothered me rather than what I adored about her, I deserted her. Like a precious fragrant flower I brought proudly into my home but then failed to water, I left her alone in countless ways to wither in the dry hot heat of our intimate relationship.
I’ll never not choose another woman I love again.
It’s torture for everyone.x2If you’re in relationship, I invite you to ask yourself this question:
“Why am I choosing my partner today?” If you can’t find a satisfying answer, dig deeper and find one. It could be as simple as noticing that in your deepest heart’s truth, “I just do.”If you can’t find it today, ask yourself again tomorrow. We all have disconnected days.
But if too many days go by and you just can’t connect with why you’re choosing your partner, and your relationship is rife with stress, let them go. Create the opening for another human being to show up and see them with fresh eyes and a yearning heart that will enthusiastically choose them everyday.Your loved one deserves to be enthusiastically chosen. Everyday.
You do, too……   Choose wisely!!Source: Bryan Reeves

Choose Her Everyday (Or Leave Her)

Dear Friends,
this is a beautiful and heart felt article from a man who failed himself in love and mad his math – how not to repeat the pain. Written in honesty and clarity it gives a clear picture that both sides are suffering, when we can not really choose our partner. As since yesterday the star constellation Venus is retrograde, inviting us to clear our core values around everything we love and deeply desire in our life, I thought it a nice invitation to both sexes for a personal reality check. So close to the lion’s gate the energies are fiery, raw and deep!! 
Hope for all of you – who desire so, to find the courage and manifest your most hidden, most internally screaming, most satisfying picture of new love relationships into this world!
AHO! And Blessings! Edith

I spent 5 years hurting a good woman by staying with her but never fully choosing her.
I did want to be with this one. I really wanted to choose her. She was an exquisite woman, brilliant and funny and sexy and sensual. She could make my whole body laugh with her quick, dark wit and short-circuit my brain with her exotic beauty. Waking up every morning with her snuggled in my arms was my happy place. I loved her wildly.
Unfortunately, as happens with many young couples, our ignorance of how to do love well quickly created stressful challenges in our relationship. Before long, once my early morning blissful reverie gave way to the strained, immature ways of our everyday life together, I would often wonder if there was another woman out there who was easier to love, and who could love me better.
As the months passed and that thought reverberated more and more through my head, I chose her less and less. Everyday, for five years, I chose her a little less.
I stayed with her. I just stopped choosing her. We both suffered.

Choosing her would have meant focusing everyday on the gifts she was bringing into my life that I could be grateful for: her laughter, beauty, sensuality, playfulness, companionship, and so … much … more.

Sadly, I often found it nearly impossible to embrace – or even see – what was so wildly wonderful about her.

Emotional SpiralI was too focused on the anger, insecurities, demands, and other aspects of her strong personality that grated on me. The more I focused on her worst, the more I saw of it, and the more I mirrored it back to her by offering my own worst behavior. Naturally, this only magnified the strain on our relationship … which still made me choose her even less.

Thus did our nasty death spiral play itself out over five years.
She fought hard to make me choose her. That’s a fool’s task. You can’t make someone choose you, even when they might love you.
To be fair, she didn’t fully choose me, either. The rage-fueled invective she often hurled at me was evidence enough of that.
I realize now, however, that she was often angry because she didn’t feel safe with me. She felt me not choosing her everyday, in my words and my actions, and she was afraid I would abandon her.
Actually, I did abandon her.
By not fully choosing her everyday for five years, by focusing on what bothered me rather than what I adored about her, I deserted her.
Like a precious fragrant flower I brought proudly into my home but then failed to water, I left her alone in countless ways to wither in the dry hot heat of our intimate relationship.
I’ll never not choose another woman I love again.
It’s torture for everyone.
If you’re in relationship, I invite you to ask yourself this question:
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“Why am I choosing my partner today?”
If you can’t find a satisfying answer, dig deeper and find one. It could be as simple as noticing that in your deepest heart’s truth, “I just do.”
If you can’t find it today, ask yourself again tomorrow. We all have disconnected days.
But if too many days go by and you just can’t connect with why you’re choosing your partner, and your relationship is rife with stress, let them go. Create the opening for another human being to show up and see them with fresh eyes and a yearning heart that will enthusiastically choose them everyday.
Your loved one deserves to be enthusiastically chosen. Everyday.
You do, too.

Choose wisely.

Source: https://bryanreeves.com/choose-her-everyday-or-leave-her/

10 Daily reminder to keep you happy and grounded

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Man’s leg sticking out of water

In daily life we keep ourselves busy so that we stay on our toes and reach the goals we seek. It’s a good thing on principle to learn and grow, but sometimes we need a little break, a slow down of the busy energies. To remind ourselves of what is really important in life and of how valuable taking time for our friendships and beloved ones really is. If you spent daily a minimum of 10 minutes to clarify with yourself how wonderful you are, what a wonderful thing it is to be alive and what you hold to be most valuable for you, than you find more appreciation in your daily routine and things can happen with more ease.
Here are some things to try, to live by and remind yourself on a daily base. Also I encourage you to write down your own daily reminder, your very personal little list, and read them each morning before you start engaging with other people.

10 Daily Reminder

1. Know that you are powerful beyond your recognition. Be aware that your energy field is attracting things into your life. Stay positive and more positive things will come!

2. Your thoughts become reality. Keep your mind clear. Keep it clean from negativity. Have a prayer that helps you forgive what you see and stay positive yourself!

3. Forgiveness leads to high vibration. Forgiveness helps moving on from the things that are balast in life. Let go and create a new happy version of yourself.

4. Life is short, don’t sweat the small stuff. Let things go with ease. Train yourself not to hold on to the little annoyances!

5. Love yourself unconditionally. Train to thing loving and kind thoughts about yourself!

6. Every day is a new day. Start fresh and let go of the past. Every moment is a chance for a new beginning! USE IT!

index7. The darkest moments in life only make us stronger. Allow life sometimes to be hard and know, you will come out of the tunnel feeling stronger and clearer!

8. Believe in miracles. No matter if they happen to you or not! If you beliefe, they at least have a chance to appear in your life!

9. Be fearless in your convictions. Stand up for what you beliefe in and stick to it untill it manifests into your life!

10. Follow your own path. Feel who you really are and life that way!

Love and Blessings!! Edith

Meditation: Reduce Stress and Pain, Trigger Genetic Changes, and More

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by Elizabeth Renter
Wouldn’t it be wonderful to know of a way to help you relax after a long day, reduce your stress and chronic pain, help you focus better on what really matters in your life, and improve your health overall? While Big Pharma is working on that pill, there is a solution that is free and offers no side effects; it’s meditation.

A recent survey of 23,000 households in the U.S. found that about 38 percent of individuals use complementary and alternative medicine, and many of these people use meditation. The popularity of meditation is growing, and even doctors are getting in on the move—prescribing meditation to people who suffer from pain, stress, high blood pressure, and more.

The benefits of meditation have to be experienced first-hand to be fully appreciated, but science has provided several recent studies on just how this simple practice can positively influence your life.

In one of those studies, just a daily 20 minute meditation habit was found to reduce pain by a pretty remarkable 57 percent. These effects didn’t only come from questioning the study participants but by analyzing MRI scans of the brain, according to Christina Sarich. When the period of meditation was extended, participants experienced even greater benefits.

“Meditation produced a greater reduction in pain than even morphine or other pain-relieving drugs, which typically reduce pain ratings by about 25 percent,” said lead researcher Fadel ZeidanPh.D.

Another study, published in the journal Frontiers in Human Neuroscience discovered people who regularly practiced mindful meditation to be better equipped to handle stress and emotional difficulties. Further, the meditation increased empathy, or the ability to relate to fellow humans.

4“Since compassion meditation is designed to enhance compassionate feelings, it makes sense that it could increase amygdale response to seeing people suffer,” said researcher Gaelle Desbordes. “Increase amygdale activation was also correlated with decreased depression scores in the compassion meditation group, which suggests that having more compassion towards others may also be beneficial for oneself.”

Many of the known benefits of meditation could be attributed to the fact that it is actually able to alter your genes. A study in  Psychoneuroendocrinology found that when compared with a non-meditating group, study participants who meditated intensively for 8-hour sessions experienced molecular changes, even reducing levels of inflammatory genes RIPK2 and COX2, which are related to faster recoveries from stressful situations.

The power of the mind is something science is only beginning to understand. Perhaps the best overall health advice is the simplest: slow down and sit in silence daily.

http://www.bodymindsoulspirit.com/meditation-reduce-stress-and-pain-trigger-genetic-changes-and-more/
original gregg prescott | April 18, 2014 |