My Collection Of Awakening Experiences Continues No III

2-2by Edith Boyer-Telmer

Dear Friends,
nearly one year ago, on February 08th 2016, I shared with you this post called “A Collection of True Awakening Experiences II”, which was a Free E-Book project inspired by the wonderful Barbara Franken – to bring together the stories of many female voices, and their unique experiences on the path to authenticity and truthfulness. I did so, because I love projects that are born from collaborations, I saw a big chance to inspire lots of other women and men, and because I was giving myself a blessing for my birthday – which is the 8th of February.
This year I will make another leap into the unknown, and record an interview that I was invited to by the lovely team of  the awakening platform “The Spiritual Voice”. I will let you know for sure, when the talk goes online!! But in the meantime I did not want us to miss out on a review of the past year, and the steps I was able to make.

In what I posted for 2016, I spoke about the last ten year of my personal path of growth and enlightenment, and the dreams I have for the year that back than was lying ahead of me. Looking now at all the leaps and turns that I have taken in the meantime, I first of all feel like expressing my gratitude to my wonderful spirit guides, my loving dog family, my magnificent friends and all the other wonderful creatures, from the physical as from the non physical realm, for making my life such a magical ride of light and fun.
The Tarot Deck that I was talking about before, is developing beautifully. It is demanding a lot of attention and seams to have a very clear picture of how it want’s to be brought to light. I try to be the best immaculate mother to it, that I possibly can be, just follow all the corners the flow is taking and watch the tables turn. With my personal work load, I am about 1/3 in – my partner is very inspired in her painting process, and so we hope to be ready for publishing by the end of the year.

But not only that this baby is developing just fine, in the meantime I was inspired by international world events, with the idea for a book about creativity in 2017; as this is one of the major energy fields this year is powered with. My partner and I, also started talking about the value of a book about the creative process itself, as it is quite fascinating how deeply we are called to listen to the constant changes the deck is demanding from us. We have to be awake, present and willing to serve, when ever we sit down and concentrate on sharing what we receive.
eI also still adore my income work. Every time I AM spending hour with another being in a one on one training, I feel like another wonderful seed has been brought into blossoming. To have the chance and watch people go from the insecure thought of “am I crazy to think of feel a certain way”, to self-acceptance, self-love and forgiveness – which than leads for them to strength, stability and clarity in their guidance; is always a rise in my own inner degree of divine bliss.

And than, as the end or the ultimate test for every awakening seeker – there is of course the lovely family. I went back home to visit my core family during the summertime of 2016. Oh what a ride it was!! I started of with meeting good friends of mine, who had invited me to come by at their house and do some magnificent energy work with them, which I happily did. I spend several days with this closer circle of very like minded people, than I went to meet my mother. Now you need to know that karmically my mother is the only significant person o my system. She turned 85 last year and is in general in good shape, but what I noticed was a change in mindset.
When I was a child, my mother was a woman who would work and push thru every physical pain you can possibly imagine. She did so to such an extend, that I actually all my life considered her very cruel (a mix of her personal history and as well one of the B-Sides of her numerological vibration of 18/9). Maybe also because one day I had watched her slip with the ax – cut deeply into her meaty knee – take a deep inbreathe, than simply remove the ax – slip a bandage on and continue. As a little child, that was a shocker to me!
And now this same woman is talking about how normal it is to feel physical pain all the time, when you are of her age; how normal it is to not want to engage with life and seriously talk anymore, when you are of her age; and a lot about her loving connection to my beloved brother Martin, who died on Valentines Day 2011. I occasionally talk with my brother too, but I do not share any of her mindsets about aging or the physical body, and even that I did not mention that – my mother was triggered by vibration.

During this Vienna visit, I took many more trips to my mothers house, in order to spend at least 2-3hours the day with her; an amount of time I thought she would be able to handle without exploding on me in one way or the other. I have to confess that I overestimated her much more than I could even ever had imagined in my darkest childhood hatred ;-). The pattern of freak outs ended up with a frequency of 3-4 days, in which i watched her build up her frustration about “not being able to understand my world”, and than unloading this frustration in my presence.
I was fine with that, as I had sensed in my first week of traveling, that I possibly would not come back for a very long time – which also included a big chance that I would not meet her alive again – so I saw it as my last chance for a personal service to our relationship. Now let’s be honest, with today’s technology even long-term physical distance would not make any difference to a family that is close, but in our family the principle of war against everything that is bigger than the single ones imagination was “the word”.nOn my last day of meeting with family members, I came to my mothers house in a state of deep sadness about my brothers absolutely ignorant behavior, and even more the abuse he showed for the brotherhood laws for the Golden Age of Aquarius (a collective human theme, that always sets off my inner alarm system when I see people breaking the hermetic laws). That is something, I can not explain to my mom – and she is not good in holding space for other peoples pain. I tried to avoid a last clash and asked her for some time and space on her balcony, to deal with my own feelings and left for a little conscious breathing session.

But than – like I said – she is not good in handling that other people insist on having feelings ;-). She exploded over the fact that I would allow myself to come to her house, in a state of need for myself – and not perfectly poised and ready to chit-chat with her. In a moment of totally loosing it, she screamed at me “in your presence I cut all my feelings off”; to later tell me in confidence, that she also thinks of me as “the Angel of Death” – because both, my brother and my father died, when I had visited my family. It took me about five month to understand and integrate the details, of how this moment of my life was an incredible blessing.
Time to realize, that the tapestry of this ultimate rejection, that had grown from the moment on I started building my little fetus body in her womb, would unveil the last karmic strings to me that had connected us. By now, a “freedom to naturally BE ME” is the domineering feeling in my life.
Last week I had the pleasure to receive a reading of my personal Maya Calender interpretation from a dear new friend of mine, the amazing artist Gerhild Resch. She has the amazing ability to channel in a shamanic journey, how the different qualities of ones inner powers are feeling and if they are in need of any adaptations. I will happily report about the incredible details she unveiled to me in another post, but lets just say a little right now. Her explanations opened with telling me, that she had ever only shared a world like mine for one time before during her long experience, and that was in a reading she did for a child. The world she discovered in my sacred heart, was in her words that of “Alice in Wonderland” ;-), and that is just how I feel my life to be.

Dear Ones, I recently ended a piece with the following words: “I hope you are filled with a spark of inspiration right now, that you are motivated to remember the wonderfully relaxed ways in which you have been playfully creating as a child, and that you will allow them to guide you to a new mindset. No matter if you are planing to become the most important innovator of the Golden Age of Aquarius, or if you are just looking for new ideas to create your personal life, a playful approach is always helpful”. And believe me when I am saying with all my heart “I acknowledge what an incredibly blessed being I AM, to look at what I just shared with you and realize – I myself have very well followed my sparkling advice ;-)”!

Love and Blessings!
Edith

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Cancer Full Moon ~ Brings Healing & Blessings

kagaya_cancerDear Friends, 
so much has happened for all of us over the past few weeks. The Sagittarius New Moon energies have kicked off a profound chance for us to lift our vibration in this amazing collective paradigm shift. The 12/12/2015 Gateway has provided us with the courage to claim our personal freedom from old vibrations and life pattern, and the Galactic Alignment allowed us to integrate and ground all of those energies. Now it is time to come home into the circle of family and friends, and let the Caner Full Moon on December 25th shower us with blessings of healing and love. Time for all of us to except the Christ Consciousness of the
beautiful I AM presents within us!! I hope you will have beloved souls around you this blessed Christmas, and that the light of your I AM awareness might shine bright and strong!! Blessings and Divine Light!!
Edith

Shared with the kind permission of the wonderful Kelley Rosano:
There is a beautiful Cancer Full Moon on December 25. The Sun is in Capricorn. The Moon is in Cancer. This Moon highlights your need to balance your personal needs with your needs for accomplishment. Have you been too focused on your work at the expense of your personal life? Have you been too focused on relationships at the expense of your work? Do what supports your balance. There are no challenging aspects to this Full Moon. This is good news. This too is a far cry from the Cancer Moons of the past. Neptune is the planet of ideals and purification. He is in positive energy flow with both lights (the Sun and the Moon.) This is a wonderful energy to be with family and friends. It is time to celebrate. This Full Moon is fantastic for meditation and retreat. Come apart from the world. Your quiet time could reap rewards for you. It is a magical energy to merge with Creator. You can feel the presence of God. This Cancer Full Moon is gift from God.  moYou unite with your Inner Being, your Higher Self. You could feel creative. This Full Moon brings the action to where Cancer lands in your natal birth chart.
• What do you want to create?
• What makes you feel good?
• What inspires you?
• What makes your heart sing?
• What do you appreciate about yourself?
This Full Moon is in close proximity to the winter/summer solstice. Cancer takes you deep inside of Self. Cancer seeks to create a sense of home and family. The experience of nourishing bonds. Surroundings that support your growth. When you cultivate your inner life. Your Inner Being. Your soul light increases and radiates out to nurture others. This is real beauty. You ultimately realize that home is inside of you. It is the light of your own heart. We are all family. We are connected to each other through our heart flame. We are connected to each other through our soul and Higher Self. This is the God stuff of you.  All Are One.
Capricorn is the doorway out. The climb to your Mighty I Am Presence. Capricorn is where you merge with your Higher Self. Capricorn is where you are to create structures based on spiritual truth. That you are a great spiritual being. You are having a human experience. You are not a worthless sinner. You are not trying to be spiritual. You are spiritual. You are spirit in matter. The dark side to Capricorn is being too concerned with status and money. Uranus moves direct at the time of the Full Moon. This is a cosmic message for you. It is time to make real changes in your life. Surface changes will not work. It is time to dig deep. What need to change for you? Uranus stationed retrograde on July 26. What happened for you in late July and early August? Where are you ready to make a huge leap now? You will be successful in every way that you reach out to encounter new experience.aThe Cancer Full Moon speaks to the power of your emotions. Feelings are your indicators. Feelings show you that you are on the right path. Feelings demonstrate what is true for you. You create music, art and writing from the passion of your feelings. Cancer rules feelings. Cancer is about your soul power. You are being asked to nourish and nurture you. Be true to your needs. Allow your feelings to guide you because your feelings are your truth. Be true to you. Be blessed. Be well. Be safe. You Are Loved. We are all family. All Are One. Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year!

“You don’t have to take the bad with the good.
Why include the bad in the vibration?
Only include the good in the vibration, and then only the good can come to you.”
Abraham

Source: KelleyRosano.com