Choose Her Everyday (Or Leave Her)

Dear Friends,
this is a beautiful and heart felt article from a man who failed himself in love and mad his math – how not to repeat the pain. Written in honesty and clarity it gives a clear picture that both sides are suffering, when we can not really choose our partner. As since yesterday the star constellation Venus is retrograde, inviting us to clear our core values around everything we love and deeply desire in our life, I thought it a nice invitation to both sexes for a personal reality check. So close to the lion’s gate the energies are fiery, raw and deep!! 
Hope for all of you – who desire so, to find the courage and manifest your most hidden, most internally screaming, most satisfying picture of new love relationships into this world!
AHO! And Blessings! Edith

I spent 5 years hurting a good woman by staying with her but never fully choosing her.
I did want to be with this one. I really wanted to choose her. She was an exquisite woman, brilliant and funny and sexy and sensual. She could make my whole body laugh with her quick, dark wit and short-circuit my brain with her exotic beauty. Waking up every morning with her snuggled in my arms was my happy place. I loved her wildly.
Unfortunately, as happens with many young couples, our ignorance of how to do love well quickly created stressful challenges in our relationship. Before long, once my early morning blissful reverie gave way to the strained, immature ways of our everyday life together, I would often wonder if there was another woman out there who was easier to love, and who could love me better.
As the months passed and that thought reverberated more and more through my head, I chose her less and less. Everyday, for five years, I chose her a little less.
I stayed with her. I just stopped choosing her. We both suffered.

Choosing her would have meant focusing everyday on the gifts she was bringing into my life that I could be grateful for: her laughter, beauty, sensuality, playfulness, companionship, and so … much … more.

Sadly, I often found it nearly impossible to embrace – or even see – what was so wildly wonderful about her.

Emotional SpiralI was too focused on the anger, insecurities, demands, and other aspects of her strong personality that grated on me. The more I focused on her worst, the more I saw of it, and the more I mirrored it back to her by offering my own worst behavior. Naturally, this only magnified the strain on our relationship … which still made me choose her even less.

Thus did our nasty death spiral play itself out over five years.
She fought hard to make me choose her. That’s a fool’s task. You can’t make someone choose you, even when they might love you.
To be fair, she didn’t fully choose me, either. The rage-fueled invective she often hurled at me was evidence enough of that.
I realize now, however, that she was often angry because she didn’t feel safe with me. She felt me not choosing her everyday, in my words and my actions, and she was afraid I would abandon her.
Actually, I did abandon her.
By not fully choosing her everyday for five years, by focusing on what bothered me rather than what I adored about her, I deserted her.
Like a precious fragrant flower I brought proudly into my home but then failed to water, I left her alone in countless ways to wither in the dry hot heat of our intimate relationship.
I’ll never not choose another woman I love again.
It’s torture for everyone.
If you’re in relationship, I invite you to ask yourself this question:
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“Why am I choosing my partner today?”
If you can’t find a satisfying answer, dig deeper and find one. It could be as simple as noticing that in your deepest heart’s truth, “I just do.”
If you can’t find it today, ask yourself again tomorrow. We all have disconnected days.
But if too many days go by and you just can’t connect with why you’re choosing your partner, and your relationship is rife with stress, let them go. Create the opening for another human being to show up and see them with fresh eyes and a yearning heart that will enthusiastically choose them everyday.
Your loved one deserves to be enthusiastically chosen. Everyday.
You do, too.

Choose wisely.

Source: https://bryanreeves.com/choose-her-everyday-or-leave-her/

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12 comments on “Choose Her Everyday (Or Leave Her)

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  6. I choose love..one man one woman. A man I can have in my children’s life with 100% safelty. I choose that. I choose house shoes and robes.I choose bowling over clubbing I choose popcorn and paper view not motels. I choose God and God fearing man.I pray at this moment God looks out after family .I may not have an hour in its life.it’s never gauranteed so I now leave in your almighty hands jesus. To lead me

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  8. So profoundly GOOD! Yes. This is the foundation of love… Choosing the love or not. If not, than let them go and free yourself from an inauthentic loveship.

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